Totally Fucked Up

WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO LOSE?
DOES IT MEAN FIGHT ALL YOUR LIFE AND NEVER WIN?
DOES IT MEAN SWEAT AND MOURN EVERY GOAL LIKE IF IT WAS THE LAST?
DOES IT MEAN THAT EVEN IF YOU SEE THE SUCCESS YOU THINK YOU'RE NOT WORTH OF IT?
PERHAPS FOR AN EDUCATION BASED ON COMPETITIVENESS
COMPETITIVENESS NEVER SEEN AND THAT IT DOESN’T EXIST FOR YOU?

WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO WIN?
DOES IT MEAN TO DESTROY THE OTHER WITHOUT A SECOND THOUGHT?
DOES IT MEAN TO BE UNAWARE?
DOES IT MEAN THAT EVEN IF YOU HAVE SUCCESS YOU THINK THAT NEVER IS ENOUGH?

PERHAPS FOR AN EDUCATION BASED ON COMPETITIVENESS
COMPETITIVENESS INGRAINED IN BLOOD THAT IS SACRED TO YOu?
WHAT DOES IT MEAN THE FAMILY?
DOES IT MEAN RESIGNED TO WHAT YOU ARE IN LUCK?
ENVYING WHAT OTHERS HAVE AND WHAT YOU THINK YOU DESERVE TO HAVE TOO?
DOES IT MEAN A FOREING PARENTS ABSOLUTELY ALIENATED ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS?

AN UNKNOWN FAMILY FROM YOUR BIRTH
TRYING TO ACCEPT IT WITHOUT SUCCESS?
WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO LOVE OTHERS?
DOES IT MEAN TO BE RECIPROCAL?

LEAVE ME ALONE
I ONLY WANT TO DIE
WHERE THERE IS NOISE AND ALCOHOL
FEEL LIKE I LOSE LIFE…
…SMILE AND SAY BYE.
LEAVE ME ALONE
I ONLY WANT TO DIE
WHERE THERE IS NOISE AND ALCOHOL
FEEL LIKE I LOSE LIFE…
…SMILE AND SAY BYE.

LEAVE ME ALONE
I ONLY WANT TO DIE
WHERE THERE IS NOISE AND ALCOHOL
FEEL LIKE I LOSE LIFE…
…SMILE AND SAY BYE.
LEAVE ME ALONE
I ONLY WANT TO DIE
WHERE THERE IS NOISE AND ALCOHOL
FEEL LIKE I LOSE LIFE…
…SMILE AND SAY BYE.

DOES IT MEAN THAT YOU FIND YOURSELF ALONE SURROUNDED BY MANY PEOPLE?
AND THE GHOST COMES TO SEE YOU WHEN YOU ARE ALONE WITH YOUR THOUGHTS?
DOES IT MEAN TORTURING YOUR SOUL THINKING ABOUT THE BAD THINGS YOU'VE DONE?
AND NEVER THINK ABOUT THE GOOD THINGS, IF THERE EVER WAS.
WHAT DOES IT MEAN FEELING REJECTED?
DOES IT MEAN THAT YOU ARE INFERIOR?
DOES IT MEAN THAT YOU ARE WORSE?
DOES IT MEAN THAT AT THE END OF THE ROAD WHEN EVERYTHING IS CLEAR AND THERE’S NO DOUBT ABOUT
YOU´LL EXPECT HIS COINS AS A FAIRLY PAYMENT OF THEIR SNUBBED FOR YEARS?
DO THEY CLEAR THEIR CONSCIENCE WITH THEIR SCRUBS?

WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO LIVE?
DOES IT MEAN TO LIVE WITH ALL OF THIS?
AND FIGHT AND CRY EVERY STEP OF A STAIR THAT I DON´T WANT TO GO UP AND THAT I REFUSE TO GO DOWN?
SO WE LIVE
WITH OUR DISASTERS, SUCCESS, OUR FAMILY AND LOVERS
WHO DISOWNED US BECAUSE I AM DIFFERENT TO THE REST
SO WE LIVE
WITH OUR DISASTERS, SUCCESS, OUR FAMILY AND LOVERS
THAT YOU HAD ACHIEVED
ALTHOUGH IF YOU FEEL THAT EVERYTHING COULD IT BE EASILY

AND KEEP FIGHTING, BLOODING AND CRYING
AND KEEP FIGHTING, BLOODING AND CRYING
AND KEEP FIGHTING, BLOODING AND CRYING