Paralysed By Fear

I cannot breathe, my anxiety has tightened my throat.
I feel my stomach twist inside of me.
All I hear is the blood rushing through my veins.
A veiled shadow is all I see.

Dread turns to bliss, bliss turns to rage.
I see no escape, like I'm trapped in a cage.
No answers within, they never have been.
Fed up with life where my emotions were king.

My mind keeps running in circles for days.
I can't find a way out of here.

Damned be my life. Damned be my crown.
Damned be it all if I can't find my calm.
How much longer do I have to endure the horrors of this spiritual torture?

Then I saw in a brief moment of clarity, a faint light piercing the darkness.
It soon faded away, but now I knew there might be a way

out of the nightmare my life had become.
The downward spiral since the day I was born.
My wretched nature from which I couldn't escape.
The eternal horror that was to be my fate.

And once again the darkness surrounds me as I am left to my own misery
And I hear a cold laughter as I fall to my knees.

As I collapse I finally see,
that the answer was always in front of me

Now that I have come undone, I will rise as reborn and face the storms again

Nothing has changed, my emotions flare up as before
Was it all for naught?

The haunted I was is not who I am.
You were once me, but not any more.
Be silent and still and heed my command.
From this day forth this insurgence must end.

The raging storm cannot hide the way I must go.
I found the way out of here.